What I Do

The life of a theorist (“Good Benito” by Alan Lightman, highly recommended):

He stands up from the boxes and looks out the window. To the east, in the distance, rises the steeple of a chapel, fragile and faint. The light changes. A cloud drifts over the sun. Then the sun is uncovered again, the little room fills up with light.
He lets down the blinds but keeps the slats open. Strips of light slide from the wall to the floor. He returns to his boxes, unpacks. A set of keys. A faded photograph of a young woman with auburn hair. Two old letters from John. These last things he puts carefully in a drawer. Most of the boxes are books. He stack them against the wall, the muscles flexing in his arms. The room darkens as another cloud passes over the sun, lightens, darkens again.
Now he lies on the upholstered couch in the corner. He beings writing. He writes on a white pad of paper, wavy lines and strange signs, mathematical symbols. He closes his eyes for a while, begins writing again. Someone knocks on the door, but he doesn’t hear. He imagines corrugated surfaces, magnified again and again. He calculates and imagines, while the room glows and dims and the sun slides slowly across the floor.

The best days of a theorist are lonely periods of intense concentration mixed with a sort of day dreaming creativity. And it’s one of the reasons I find it nearly impossible to complain about what I do.

Reality Propaganda

Philip Dick has a famous quote about reality. Actually on the web you can find two versions of the quote:

Reality is that which, when you stop believing in it, doesn’t go away.

and

Reality is whatever refuses to go away when I stop believing in it.

If the second quote is correct, well Philip Dick died in 1982, and yet reality certainly exists, so Philip Dick must not have died in 1982. So I decided to stop believing in the second quote. And yet the second quote remains.

Occam

I put away Jorge Luis Borges many years ago when I wrote my Literature thesis as an undergrad. Tonight I returned to him and read Death and the Compass:

“It’s possible, but not interesting,” Lönnrot answered. “You will reply that reality hasn’t the slightest need to be of interest. And I’ll answer you that reality may avoid the obligation to be interesting, but that hypothesis may not . . .”

Valis the Movie?

From Wired:

John Alan Simon, who produced The Getaway with Alec Baldwin and Kim Basinger, and his partner, Dale Rosenbloom, are trying to get studio backing for films based on three Dick novels – Radio Free Albemuth, Valis, and Flow My Tears, the Policeman Said

How the hell do you make a movie out of Valis? Valis?

Quicksilver

I’m about halfway through Quicksilver, Neil Stephenson’s new novel. This book is going to appeal to a lot less people than Cryptonomicon, mostly because you have to be a real hard core geek to love what he’s doing in this novel, not just some half-ass computer nerd who built his last computer. That being said, and unhumbly labeling myself as a member of the former class, so far the book has me hooked.
But what I’m really writing this entry about is not to give a review of the book (see the New York Times review or Lundblad’s review.) …especially considering I haven’t finished it yet! What really struck me in reading Stephenson is how his books remind me of the best conversations I’ve had. You know one of those conversations at a party where the ideas flow like spittle from a rabid dogs mouth (hee hee!) Where you lose track of time and how cold it is standing outside on the back porch in the middle of winter but wouldn’t give up your company or the conversation for anything. In fact, when I think about all of the authors that I consider my favorites, all of them, Philip Dick, Thomas Pynchon, Jorge Luis Borges, etc. give me this same feeling.
Well in honor of Stephenson, I don’t know how to end this entry.

Because I could not stop for Death

Is it heartening, or scary, to read Emily Dickinson’s views on “publish or perish.” Is the end result of demanding quality over quantity to die agoraphobic but be discovered brilliant?

Publication – is the Auction
Of the Mind of Man-
Poverty-be justifying
For so foul a thing

Possibly-but We-would rather
from Our Garret go
White-Unto the White Creator-
Than invest-Our Snow-

Thought belong to Him who gave it-
Then-to Him Who bear
Its Corporeal illustration-Sell
the Royal Air

In the Parcel-Be the Merchant
Of the Heavenly Grace-
But reduce no Human Spirit
To Disgrace of Price

-Emily Dickinson, 709

A Philip K Dick Quote

To fight the Empire is to be infected by its derangement. This is a paradox; whoever defeats a segment of the Empire becomes the Empire; it proliferates like a virus, imposing its form on its enemies. Thereby it becomes its enemies.

-Philip K Dick, VALIS